Browsing through Friendster.com never fails to give me lotsa thoughts. The Childhood Friend has given birth to her 2nd child, the Project Mate has married to the same guy who always picked her up after our projects or lab sessions, the Classmate is getting more "happening" from all her parties. It suddenly dawned on me that many years has past.... I am getting old!
No, I'm not talking about wanting to get married and start a family. In fact, I don't think I am ready. Once you are married, you will automatically branded as an "Auntie". I feel there are still many things which I have missed out on, many things which I still have not experienced. Can't exactly spell out what... just a feeling. Maybe life is getting more of a ritual now... work on the 2nd half of the week. meeting Superboys on my off-days, with the occasional gatherings with his friends, lazing around in the house watching VCDs & reading, picking up Superboy after his work to dine at Holland Village, weekends at Jurong Point... everything is so expected. There seems little I can look forward to during the weekends or on holidays; either I'll be too tired from work on Saturdays or the Monday blues for him will kick in on Sundays. We can't have any concrete travel plans now that his job is always so busy.
I am happy with Superboy of course. He is more than what I can ask for. Perhaps I just missed those days of the incessant SMSes with different friends to arrange suppering at different places every night, playing billiard at Queens & Bukit Timah, the ocassional dolling up to go party, the ICQ chats till dawn, etc. Those were hectic times, with practically no time for myself. Guess humans are greedy creatures, they want the best of both worlds. Think I will just go back on my VCDs and accept the fact that I AM OLD and old people are not wanted at parties or poking the cues at billiard joints.
No, I'm not talking about wanting to get married and start a family. In fact, I don't think I am ready. Once you are married, you will automatically branded as an "Auntie". I feel there are still many things which I have missed out on, many things which I still have not experienced. Can't exactly spell out what... just a feeling. Maybe life is getting more of a ritual now... work on the 2nd half of the week. meeting Superboys on my off-days, with the occasional gatherings with his friends, lazing around in the house watching VCDs & reading, picking up Superboy after his work to dine at Holland Village, weekends at Jurong Point... everything is so expected. There seems little I can look forward to during the weekends or on holidays; either I'll be too tired from work on Saturdays or the Monday blues for him will kick in on Sundays. We can't have any concrete travel plans now that his job is always so busy.
I am happy with Superboy of course. He is more than what I can ask for. Perhaps I just missed those days of the incessant SMSes with different friends to arrange suppering at different places every night, playing billiard at Queens & Bukit Timah, the ocassional dolling up to go party, the ICQ chats till dawn, etc. Those were hectic times, with practically no time for myself. Guess humans are greedy creatures, they want the best of both worlds. Think I will just go back on my VCDs and accept the fact that I AM OLD and old people are not wanted at parties or poking the cues at billiard joints.
