Enigma

Dunno what to write... but just wanna create an entry to remind me of how free i am now. Took a 3 days leave which amount to 10 days off. For those who knows what my working pattern is will understand this theory. A bit wasted thou' since I am not going overseas this time. Taiwan trip is going to be in end Nov. "I AM GOING TAIWAN!" Gonna savour all the local delicacies & get lost in the busy streets of the night markets. :)

When one is free, he will begin to think of many things, things which he has no time to deeply ponder and rationalise in his life - the past the present & the future. I am of no exception. In this journey of reminiscence, many "what if"s will begin to appear in one's mind. The past will consist of questions like "What if our paths had never crossed? What if I had not given away my precious necklace? What if I had not said those words?". Questions you might ask regarding the present will be "Shall I continue in this job? Shall I sell my car" Shall I sign up this policy?" The unknown future will comprise of "Will I strike toto next month? How will my kids look like? What will happen if I take this path home?" Life is full of uncertainty, ambiguity & vulnerbility. Hence, we must always make contingency plans for ourselves if we want a hopefully-secured future.

It's like a gamble. When you placed a bet, say in roulette (my fave game)... If you place a bet on #13 straight up for example and it came out #13, you win 35 to 1 the highest payout in the game. However, the possibility of striking is only 2.63%. So lets say you bet on #13 again plus additional bets on RED & EVEN, if the result is again #13, you win 35 times your stake but lost the stakes on RED & EVEN. So you still win 33 times your stakes (provided the stakes remain constant for all bets). But if the wheel turns out #14, you lost the stake on #13 but you win on RED & EVEN. Overall, you still win 1 time your stake! By placing #13 is like a hope, a very tiny hope of 2.63% but placing stakes on RED & EVEN is like a safeguard method if case your hope is destroyed. Of course the worst may happen when all your stakes are lost i.e when the roulette wheel stops at #15. At that time, it's up to you if you want to continue in this game or forgo the loss and treat it as an experience to the casino.

Money is the Root of all Evil

How much do you agree with this statement? For me, I swear by it. Everything in this world talks about money. Money makes the world goes around. Most of the crimes in the world are caused by this money shit. Little kids who become pickpockets at the age of 5, young girls in the 3rd world country sell their chasity at the tender age of 12, siblings who grew up together fight for the will of the deceased parents, traffickers who consume plastics of heroin into their stomach to avoid custom checks, and countless cases that broke up relationships, friendships and kinships.. Money KILL!

Who do you think gets the babes? Money plays a bigger factor than looks alone. Men with flashy cars usually score in the dating games nowadays. Take a look at the million-dollars soccer players... they are dating either the Hollywood actress or the Milan top runway models. Why do you think so many towkays are always surrounded by a pool of women when they are already balding and have a beer belly and a face full of oil? Why do you think Anna Nicole Smith marry a dying man aged 80+? Bullocks to the things she said about falling in love with the old man because he came to support her strip shows every night. Can he really give her the love she needs? Yes, her love for money perhaps. And erm... the sexual satisfaction? Imagine making love to an old man who barely can take off his own clothes? What, Viagra? Must as well make love a a tree branch!

As you grow older, you will realise that every topics you discuss have a thing to do with money. This is especially true when you attend a class gathering. First thing people ask is definitely "What are you doing now (reads: "How much are you earning now"?) Money can be a sensitive issue. Money is widely used as a comparison scale. Money can change a person. You may be your best friend's enemy one day if you are earning more than her and she is not happy about it because she feels she deserves more than you.

Is money the way you measure a person's worth? Our hospitals for example, why must they categorise into 'A', 'B' & 'C' wards? The 'A' wards have the best and probably most nutritious food, better medical attention and most likely the best doctors. Does it mean that those who are not so well-off do not deserve the same grade of medical care? So, does it mean that the poor are not worthy of living in this world?

The world is bias and this is a fact that we cannot deny nor try to change. The truth hurts. It's a sick world.